Sometimes it is exactly as David describes it in Psalm 139. I begin to think about God and the fact that he knows everything about me. He knows my words and thoughts before I ever think them or speak them. He knows everything about me.
Then I realize that I cannot be righteous in his eyes. There are times when I sin and do not even know it. To say nothing about the many times I sin when I know for certain I am not doing what he would have me to do.
Then comes the voice. Is it the voice of the devil? Or, better, is it the voice described by Paul in Romans 7. That battle that rages within me between my mind which knows God’s will and my own personal desires, described by Paul as the “law of sin that lives within my members.”
Then comes the lie. A deceitful lie because it is mixed with truth. But it doesn’t tell the whole truth.
The voice that says, “You can’t be right with God. You never have been, you never will be.”
But then I remember the whole truth. God would say, “You are not right with me. You never have been and you never will be based on yourself. But because you believe in my son, Jesus, you, because of what he has done and your faith in him, are counted by me as righteous. In Christ you are righteous my son.”
So I and we can say with David, “how blessed is the person whose lawless deed are forgiven, and whose sins are covered; blessed is the person against whom the Lord will not count his sin.”